God Knows What You Need When You Need It
I am a firm believer in the fact that God knows exactly what you need and when you need it. Even if that thing is temporary, it is for a purpose. God has given me many amazing gifts this year, and I am thankful to see the other side of it. In a season of waiting and confusion, I have found that God has provided me with gifts along the way.
With a little over a month before I go back to school, I have been thinking a lot about where God has led me and what he has been doing through me in the last two years. In comparison to where I was at this time last year, I am confident in what this year brings. Little did I know in July of 2022 where I would be in July 2023. I have been through it, but I have also found joy in many new experiences and new people that have come into my life.
The fall of sophomore year brought about many changes in my life, and to put it lightly, it was some of the hardest few months for me. Spring semester ended up being even harder, and I look back with fond memories but with a lot of pain. In the span of my sophomore year, I saw a lot of loss, pain, and questioning. More specifically, there were times I wasn’t sure I could go on. I even considered taking a semester off of school so I would be able to step away and refocus myself. I felt alone in my pain, and like there was no one who would truly understand what I was going through.
In the midst of feeling like I lost a lot of people, I was constantly reminded of the grace of God. Towards the end of fall semester, I got closer with some of the people within my major, which was something I had yet to do. They have done nothing but lead me closer to Christ and shown me what it looks like to live a life pursuing Him in everything. Alli, Callie and her boyfriend Drew, Erin, and Maddie are just some of the people who were placed in my life at a perfect time. Did I lose some friends along the way? Sure. But God knew exactly who I needed and when. Along with my roommates, they were some of the people who got me through some of the hardest times, even if they are unaware of it. I truly needed them and their influence in my life, because I do not know where I would be without the gift of their friendship. They came at a time when I least expected, but it was right when I needed them.
Why do we have to wait so much as Christians? It’s because waiting is when faith becomes truly necessary. In a time where I needed extra support, I quickly saw the faithfulness of God in the friends I was given. Along with that, they have continued to be a great support in my life. I wanted to write this post a while ago, but even within the last week I have seen God work within them. Being in a summer slump and trying to stay afloat, Alli just so happened to send me a text of encouragement. It was exactly what I needed in the moment, and I told her right away how God used her in that moment. I got coffee with Callie yesterday, and our conversations truly reflected God and his faithfulness in our lives. In addition, Drew has been incredibly supportive of this blog and has been an encouragement to me, asking questions and giving me even more reason to continue this project. The gift of their friendship has felt like a breath of fresh air and a hug in what has been a confusing and difficult time.
Even in the midst of confusion, do not give up on the work of God. He knows exactly what you need and when you need it. That does not mean, however, that you will not face confusion after the grace of God has been revealed to you. I still find myself in times of doubt, because life is never going to be easy. That’s not the promise. The promise is that God will be faithful through it all, and you never have to question whether or not he is there, guiding you through it all.
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